2018 Updates

It certainly has been a while. In fact, I had to think hard of what my blog name is since I have not updated it in years. So why now? Well... I need an outlet to write down my health journey. Despite this being on a public platform, I've always felt compelled to share my journey because there have been numerous times when I've read other blogs and felt so refreshed and inspired. My hope is that someone out there will read this, and say "I can totally relate!" to even take it a bit further, I hope that this blog will empower those who feel defeated, tired, and scared. These emotions are what I carry as I feel an extra 20 pounds in my body that I know does not belong here. I look at my reflection and see a person who knows this is not the best version of herself. This crazy roller coaster of losing weight, gaining weight, and losing weight again is exhausting. However, it seems that the lack of ability to maintain my goal weight is due to changes in life that often lead to a change in trajectory. Healthy habits, established routines, and wellness commitments lay on the wayside as I turn my attention to other pressing matters like working full time, moving, and buying a new house. All are crazy changes that I feel comfortable attributing to my weight gain (lol) whether those are excuses or legitimate reasons, I'll mention them anyway since it makes sense to me right now.
Before and after pictures used to be really motivating to me. Crossing off calendars days that mark my work outs, counting down remaining days until a program is finished were also once motivating. However, now I feel like an old and rusty car that needs more than an oil change or a jump start to get started. I need an overhaul! I don't know what that looks like, but I know I need it, and I need it soon.
I go back to work in two months. My wish is that by then, I've already set an established routine of meal prepping and consistent workouts. Lord help me... this feels overwhelming.